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| I've been to Japan.
I fell in love once.
I've had my first kiss.
I've gotten to experience aspects of love that I never thought I would.
I have a lot of friends.
I've seen really good movies.
I've listened to great music.
I've sang karaoke.
I own or have owned just about everything I've wanted to own.
I've punched a wall.
I've cried my heart out.
I've laughed till it hurt.
I've smiled for no reason.
I dyed my hair a few times.
My ears are pierced.
I have rings.
I have necklaces.
I've eaten nice food.
I've been treated like a celebrity.
I've been told I was important.
I have lots of posters.
I've gotten trophies.
I've gotten certificates.
I've gotten a plaque.
I've written stories.
I've had people enjoy my stories.
I've had a fan base before.
I own manga.
I've had pets. I still have pets.
My room has been painted a color I like.
I've had a job before.
I've received gifts.
I've spent entire days doing nothing but relaxing.
I've done enough to realize that my life hasn't been all that bad.
And I still feel like I'm empty, and yeah I know why.
I just wish that I didn't feel this way.
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| I just got an email from Boston University with deadlines on applications. And I was gonna delete it cuz
I thought, "I don't need this for another year. o_O;;;"........HAHAHAHAHA. I JUST REALIZED I ACTUALLY HAVE TO START APPLYING TO PLACES X__X That was a wake up call. Hahaha.
Man I'm getting old.
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| I was browsing through the Xanga featured question thing,
and one of the questions was, 'If you could feel only one emotion
for the rest of your life, what would it be and why?'
I'd choose to be immensely happy for the rest of my life.
Even if someone told me bad news, like, a family member passed away,
I'd want to feel immensely happy. O_O
Because really, who would want to spend the rest of their life
feeling sorrowful or sad or angry?
Maybe 'content' is good too, but when you're content,
you still want something more. Satisfied too.
I wish I could always be immensely happy no matter what my situation was.
School Person: 'You failed all your classes.' =Me> YAY! I'm so happy! Wheres the positive in this?
I DON'T KNOW, BUT I'M SO HAPPY! ^____^
Boyfriend: Sorry, I can't come see you today. _Reason_. =Me> ^__^~That's okay!
This just means that next time I can make you spend MORE time with me =D!!!!!!
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Maybe that wouldn't be too good. O_O You'd drive people crazy after awhile. xD
Fine. But I would like to be happy.
How about optimistic? O_O I'm a pessimist to the 100th degree.
So............
Yeah.
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| New Layout For Me.
O_O
Interesting.
So, today was Friday, and I did nothing.
Tomorrows Saturday, and I'm doing nothing.
The day after that is Sunday, and I'm still doing nothing.
And then its Monday, and I might do something,
but that wasn't guaranteed,
so I could always end up doing nothing.
T_T............
This blows. =) | | |
| I went to the beach yesterday, for the first time in like...
3 years. It was a little cool out and we probably should have saved it for
this coming weekend, but I've been wanting to go to the beach all Summer,
and on Saturday night, Chris randomly decided he felt like going to the beach
the next day, so yeah...We went. ^___^ Just the two of us, so I was happy. ^_^
We probably didn't stay very long. We got there and sat in the sand for like,
5 - 10 minutes, then we went into the water which was freezing...xD
we stayed in there for an hour and a half, then we got out
because of how cold it was O_O...Stayed another few minutes on the sand
and headed home. =P But we had fun. ^_^
It was cold going home since our clothes were wet @_@
Well, not all our clothes. Just our shorts.
He changed shirts and I took mine off and put a hoodie over
my bathing suit top thingy. Otherwise I woulda gotten sick. =_=
While we were there, there was this couple sitting, and this one seagull flew to them.
...Then all of a sudden, two more, three more..O_O
They got surrounded by seagulls.. xD They looked a little scared..
It was kinda funny. =P
Also, when we initially got there, there was this one guy just lying on his back.
I said he looked dead.
Then after we spent time in the water and came back, he was STILL lying on his back.
And I was like, "See? I told you he was dead."
...But then he turned over and I was like =/...xD;;
It was amusing. =)
I wish we would've had a camera. I would've liked pictures
because it was a nice beach that I didn't know existed till recently. o_O
And we don't have a lot of pictures together anyway so that would've been
a nice opportunity to take pictures. =P
And yeah...
that's it. =P | | |
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